One of those days when all you want to do it eat. You can scarf down anything that is laying around then feel unsatisfied. What are you looking for? What drives this? I’ve tried Ice cream, Greens, Red Peppers, Pineapple, Cheese, Granola, Figs, Almonds and Dried Strawberries. Nothing seemed to work. Perhaps more chocolate?
About seven days until my next period and I wish I could understand hormones. I wish I had something tangible to research. Something that tells my why. Why am I bloated? Why am i insatiable? Why do I feel despair? The older I become the more erratic I am during such times of womanly encumbrance. With age also comes better orgasms, so I guess it is a fair trade. I can be calm without pleasure or unruly, with.
It is a gift to be able to climb on top of a man and bring myself to such depths of pleasure in minutes if need be or to draw out the experience and reach peaks of enlightenment. At my age it isn’t easy to find men who are willing to search the corners of their souls for such a pleasure, let alone their minds or bodies. For me, it is almost a waste to engage in such activities without a shared acknowledgment of the sexual enlightenment we are about to experience. Unless you are willing to give all of yourself to this act - which most people take for granted- we should part ways before things get complicated or misunderstood.
I recently read the statement that “sex is beautiful” and it gave me a pit in my stomach. Sex can be beautiful, yes. I find most sex to be misunderstood. Important factors have been removed. The mere act of penetration is considered sex. Here is my penis going into your vagina and now, we are have had sex. Isn’t this thrilling? Why would we want anything else? How dare we even try to reach enlightenment through such a simple act. Most people don’t go beyond the terms definition.
I feel that you can reach enlightenment with anything you do. Food, Love, Work, Sleep, Sex, Exercise.
In my opinion, if you are not in a state of euphoria with whatever you are doing in life, you are doing it wrong. You should find that thing thats brings bliss and do it every day.